§ [ 009 ] § 'It's dangerous to go alone, take this...'

[red_queen]

Cross-fit training day #2
Yesterday was my first day of having my ass handed to me and then punished again. It was painful, today I couldn't really walk and stairs were hell. It wasn't so much that it hurt going up the stairs, it hurt going down the stairs. The top of my legs just burn and it makes my knees buckle. I swear I'm not complaining though, I mean, I want to get pretty again. I want to get effing hot. I want to be amazing and I want to look good. If this is what it takes, then I will have to do it.

I am just not looking forward to the pains that will come the day I get my period. All that stretching is going to make these cramps a pain in my ass. Or well, in the uterus. Woe.

ANOTHER REASON WHY I WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT IS BECAUSE I FIND OVERWEIGHT DOCTORS TO BE HYPOCRITES. They should be able to like... keep themselves healthy. I dunno, it's what I think.


MCAT
So tomorrow I take that mock MCAT. I know it's just a mock test but this is serious. I'm afraid if I suck I'll get so depressed, I don't need another thing telling me I'm not smart enough to go to med school. I will go to med school. I just need to gain some confidence. Hopefully this test proves that, I can do it. I can't really tell if I'm nervous, I'm sore as hell so I'm more concerned about that then this test. At least I'll know what I'll be up against. This entire school semester has been crazy. I can't wait for this semester to be done. I need to go back to Vegas.

I feel like the med-school paid for this for me just to see how much they should bother investing in me. I'm all sorts of nervous.